MY LIFE COLLECTS ANOTHER YESTERDAY.

sum.

2010-07-21T12:49:00.000-07:00

i know how you feel.

2010-07-21T12:48:00.000-07:00

the boy.

2010-07-21T12:40:00.001-07:00

“The way you make me feel is unlike anything I’ve ever experienced before. You make me feel like I’m dying and flying and living and that my heart just stopped beating but yet is pumping 90 mph all in one moment. You make me feel invincible but vulnerable. weak, but like nothing could ever bring me down. You make me feel like I’m free and yet trapped by your every move. You leave me breathless and yet are the only thing that keeps me still breathing. You control my every thought, movement, heart beat. You’ve got me, all of me. That’s all I can give.”

see that girl?

2010-07-21T12:38:00.000-07:00

See that girl? Yeah, she's the one who stuck up for you, the one who stayed up til' midnight just to talk to you. She's the one whose heart flutters when she gets a call or text from you, the one who says good morning every time she gets the opportunity, and the one who prays she'll get a chance to say goodnight. Boy, she's the one who fought for you, the one that missed you and loved you. But by the time you realize that she's the girl you want, she'll already be with the guy who figured it out.

the best.

2010-07-21T12:36:00.001-07:00

I am incredibly awkward and negative. I get attached easily, and I hold on for too long. I don’t like opening up to people. Most 5 year old children can express their feelings better than me. I hide behind my fake smiles. I’m terrified of being hurt. I tend to act older than I am. I’m probably one of the most difficult people you will ever meet. But I can be sweet. I’m a great listener. I’ll guard your secrets with my life. I will never judge you based on your mistakes, and I’ll love you as much as I can. I can be, if you let me, one of the best things in your life.

it will all be true.

2010-07-21T12:35:00.001-07:00

Have you ever wondered about the things we tell ourselves before we fall asleep? We whisper the words in the dark, telling ourselves that we're happy, or that he's happy, that people will change their minds. We persuade ourselves that we can live without the people who have left. Each night before we fall asleep we lie to ourselves in a desperate hope that come morning, it will all be true.

when?

2010-07-21T12:33:00.002-07:00

what's left.

2010-07-21T12:33:00.001-07:00

And when a guy breaks up with a girl and she begins to cry, it's not because she's crying for the guy, not because she's upset. She's crying because she's wondering what she done wrong, as if she wasn't good enough, she's crying because she's going to miss the memories of being with him. She's crying with what's left of her heart.

remember me?

2010-07-21T12:32:00.000-07:00

Remember me? I used to be your favourite hello, your hardest goodbye, I used to be the person you wanted to talk most and will miss if you didn't get to talk to me. I used to be someone you wanted to be with everyday and night, I used to be the first thought in your mind in the morning and the last thought before you go to sleep, I used to be the girl who you wished to see me smile when I'm down and who wish I didn't cry, I used to be the most beautiful girl to you. Yeah, I used to be that person. Do you still remember me?

baby baby.

2010-07-21T12:31:00.001-07:00

you.

2010-07-21T12:29:00.000-07:00

“Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. every movie we see, every story we’re told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. but sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. and maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. maybe the happy ending is just moving on. or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment… you never gave up hope.”

— He’s just not that into you

she needs you.

2010-07-21T12:27:00.000-07:00

She needed to know that someone was looking out for her. She needed someone to promise her that the world wasn’t empty.

she.

2010-07-21T12:25:00.000-07:00

“She thinks about you non-stop and you’re all she talks about. When she talks to you she has this goofy smile on her face and she truly looks happy. With one hug, you make her melt and you always leave her with butterflies. But at the same time, when she’s upset it’s usually because of you, but she refuses to see any bad on you. And no matter how many people try and tell her different, she believes you’re perfect for her and worth every second of the wait. But she’s too scared to tell you any of this, because she doesn’t want to screw anything up and doesn’t want to end up hurt…”

ily dadi.

2010-07-21T12:21:00.000-07:00

Your little girl has grown up daddy. She lies to you about not having a boyfriend, her virgin lips are inexistent, and her clothes no longer hang below her knees. She wears makeup , she knows how to doll herself up , and she has an interest for men. However, Daddy, the only man she will forever love the most is you. She may have a million men who steal and break her heart, but you are the only one who can give your blessings and allow the right gentlemen to take your place as the new protector of the heart.

I love you Daddy, signed your daughter.

--what a perfect letter for dad.

i hope he reads this.

i still love you dad.

you will always be that one guy that loved me first.

and of course, the first that i loved.

that's life.

2010-07-21T12:20:00.001-07:00

You make yourself strong because it's what is expected of you. You become confident because someone beside you is unsure. You work hard because you don't want to disappoint anyone. You turn into the person others need you to be. That's life.

no longer.

2010-07-21T12:18:00.000-07:00

You know what hurts? Its when you see your entire world so happy, happy than he ever was before, and realize you're not the reason for his twinkling eyes anymore. And at this point, all you could do is sit around and be happy for him, even if he's no longer yours.

that was enough.

2010-07-21T12:16:00.000-07:00

We didn't talk about anything heavy or light. We were just there, together. And that was enough.

— The Perks of Being a Wallflower

oh yeah.

2010-07-21T12:15:00.000-07:00

teenage.

2010-07-21T12:14:00.002-07:00

“So we’re teenagers. We fall in love too often, too easily and too hard for our own good; we don’t listen to the people that we value the opinion of the most; we hurt the people we love & we make the same mistakes over and over. We want all the privileges of being older, with the advantages of being young. We do things no one can explain, including us. Every minute of it is exhausting and every minute is amazing.”

trusting.

2010-07-21T12:14:00.001-07:00

The hardest thing to ever feel is trust. Wondering what they're doing when they're out without you. Hoping that no other person is touching them and wondering if they're flirting back. It's hard not knowing what's behind closed doors. But it's even harder to wonder if they'll ever get bored of you.

kiss.

2010-07-21T12:13:00.000-07:00

happy.

2010-07-21T12:12:00.000-07:00

“And in some way, I recognize that I will never be fully over you, and that part of me will always love you. But most of me understands that this doesn’t work, and I need to move on to be happy.”

this is to you.

2010-07-21T12:11:00.000-07:00

“This is to you. This is to you, his best friend. The girl who puts up with more taunting, teasing, and endless torture that she ever should because she knows he teases the people he loves the most. This is to you, the girl he always calls first to tell about his big news or just to talk to someone about the latest episode of Lost, even though he knows you don’t care, but you’ll listen. This is to you, who picks him up at any hour, at any place, when he gets into another fight with his parents, and he knows you’ll drop everything to go and get him. This is to you, one of the guys. The one who laughs when they tell you they sometimes forget you’re a girl, or when they create new nicknames for you that aren’t cute, but mean something relating to you being a whore or a slut. This is to you, the girl who was there when there was too much alcohol and too much loneliness in the room that night and things got carried away. The girl who spent the next week hiding from her parents with hickeys on her neck. The girl who never asked you about what happened and just accepted that you didn’t want anything more than that night, though that might have been just what she wanted. This is to you, who shells out endless amounts of money that you really can’t afford. This is to you, when you realize his best friends have become yours. This is you who set up those dates for him with your cute friends when a piece of you is actually jealous. And to you again, when you are the one who helps him through his relationship with all of those girls. This is to you, the girl who hears everything that people say about you two, and this is to you again, the girl who chooses to ignore everything they say. This is to you, the girl who never thought she would say the sentence “No, we’re just friends..” so many times in her life. This is to you. The girl who ignores the looks, the comments, the rumors, and the speculations of everyone else. To the girl who know the true meaning of friendship, even if she is “one of the guys,” or if she does maybe want something more. This is to the girl who wouldn’t give up what she has for anything, because she is happy. This is to you.”

over & over

2010-07-21T12:10:00.001-07:00

alright.

2010-07-21T12:08:00.002-07:00

“I cried last night, not because I missed him or even wanted him, but because I have finally realized that I am going to be alright without him.”

heartbreak.

2010-07-21T12:08:00.001-07:00

“Be thankful for every heartbreak, for they were planned. They come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. Their purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life. And you do.”

maybe forever.

2010-07-21T12:03:00.001-07:00

“A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other…Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever”

stranger.

2010-07-21T12:02:00.002-07:00

“I’m just saying, you know, you can’t know who that person is, the person who will become your ultimate confidante, your soulmate, or your lover. He may be that guy you had your eye on for years, or he might be that guy standing next to you in torn jeans buying some part of his motorcycle. Whoever it is, he starts off as a stranger, so he could be anyone.”

— Felicity

they aren't.

2010-07-21T12:02:00.001-07:00

Everyone’s heartbroken nowadays, but I mean, we all just have to move on. What’s the point of reminiscing when you know the person is no longer worth while; when they’re no longer who they used to be? When their heart is somewhere else? Do you think they still care for you, and are still thinking about you? Because quite frankly, they aren’t.

...

2010-07-21T11:59:00.000-07:00

ily.

2010-07-21T11:58:00.000-07:00

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”

— Bob Marley

girl.

2010-07-21T11:57:00.001-07:00

She's the type of girl that would just smile at you when everything inside her hurts, but all she wants is to see you happy. Understand shes holding everything behind her smile so that yours can happen. Stop taking advantage of what may could disappear right in front of you.

never.

2010-07-08T15:13:00.000-07:00

“You get a strange feeling when you’re about to leave a place, I told him, like you’ll not only miss the people you love but you’ll miss the person you are now at this time and this place, because you’ll never be this way ever again.”

— Azar Nafisi

same.

2010-07-08T14:51:00.000-07:00

i'm done.

2010-07-08T14:49:00.000-07:00

My biggest mistake was taking you back so many times, even after all the pain you caused me. I always justified it and told myself that somehow it was my fault. I’m done being the person you give up on. I am giving up on you. Good luck finding someone who will take your shit, cause I’m done.

it will all be true.

2010-07-08T14:48:00.001-07:00

what's left?

2010-07-08T14:44:00.000-07:00

remember?

2010-07-08T14:43:00.000-07:00

not knowing.

2010-07-08T14:41:00.001-07:00

“You know what I think we are most afraid of? Not knowing. Not knowing whether it’s all really worth it. Not knowing if you should give up or keep fighting. Not knowing why you do the things you do; not knowing the purpose. It’s like when you’re little and you touch the stove and get burned, because you didn’t really know that it was hot. Not knowing has always hurt us, from the very beginning.”

this is my life.

2010-07-05T18:30:00.000-07:00

this is what I'm feeling right now.

i don't know what to do anymore.

uhuh.

2010-07-05T17:57:00.000-07:00

When you’re thinking about how much you miss me, and I’m completely fine. Remember how I felt, and remind yourself this is what you wanted. Because with every day coming and going, I’m learning how to be okay without you. And I can’t wait for the day when I get to look at you and feel absolutely nothing.

oh yes.

2010-07-05T17:51:00.001-07:00

complete.

2010-07-05T17:47:00.001-07:00

We are all guilty of saving old messages from someone who became really special in our lives. Going to familiar places giving us that small twinge in our hearts and smile on our faces. It’s simply bittersweet cause every time that person crosses our minds, we remember the instances when we were complete.

this.

2010-07-05T13:43:00.001-07:00

...thinking that it won't be the same anymore, fuckn scares me.

awkward.

2010-07-05T13:39:00.001-07:00

IMAGINE HOW ONE MISTAKE CAN MAKE THINGS GO AWKWARD BETWEEN TWO PEOPLE.

- ayyy.. i can relate to this. 100%.

imylikecrazy.

2010-07-05T13:37:00.000-07:00

loove it :)

amazing..

2010-07-05T13:36:00.000-07:00

me.

2010-07-05T13:35:00.000-07:00

I'm the type of person, who likes to keep everything bottled up. I'm not the type to just break down in front of everyone. I like to put on a fake smile to let everyone know the person outside is smiling, while the person inside is hurting. Then, when I'm finally alone, that's when I can let everything out. Explaining myself is just too hard, I'd rather be alone and cry, rather than explaining myself while crying.

trust.

2010-07-05T13:34:00.000-07:00

We can’t fast-forward time to know if it’s worth it.  So we trust our hearts and hope it turns out right.

someone.

2010-07-05T13:31:00.000-07:00

note to self.

2010-07-05T13:27:00.001-07:00

“But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe.. it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is just moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls , broken hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.”

hypophrenia.

2010-07-05T13:25:00.000-07:00

i want you, just you.

2010-07-05T13:23:00.000-07:00

different.

2010-07-05T13:22:00.000-07:00

— Azar Nafisi

someday, someone will..

2010-07-05T13:21:00.001-07:00

“When you’re young everything feels like the end of the world. But it’s not it’s just the beginning, you might have to meet a few more jerks. but one day you’re gonna meet a boy who treats you the way you deserve to be treated. Like the sun rises and sets with you.”

— Mike O’ Donnell

him.

2010-07-05T13:19:00.000-07:00

bottled up.

2010-06-29T14:32:00.000-07:00

Have you ever been angry or sad, to the point where you just break down at home, in your room? Your parents don't know because you keep the tears to yourself, and you cry silently. Your friends don't know because you talk as if you're fine and dandy behind the computer screen. Well you're not fine and dandy, and you know it. No one really knows how you feel, and they have their own lives to deal with, so you don't bother telling them, you bottle it up, and store it with the other problems or troubles.

*exactly what i'm feeling right now.

someday..

2010-06-25T13:25:00.001-07:00

it's always there.

2010-06-25T13:17:00.001-07:00

ex.

2010-06-25T13:14:00.000-07:00

I hope that someday, you find an amazing girl. The kind of girl who means everything to you and makes you want to spend every moment of your time with her. The kind of girl who keeps you up at night, just thinking about her beautiful smile, and when you finally fall asleep, she`s all you dream about. I hope she`s the first thing to cross your mind when you wake up in the morning. I hope she changes you in a way you could never understand, yet you know it`s for the better. I hope she`s the kind of girl you would die for. The kind of girl who could make you cry, even though you`d never admit it. The kind of girl who makes you want to go out and do something special, something that means everything to the both of you. The kind of girl you can have silly fights with, then kiss and make up and hold her in your arms like you`re falling in love all over again. I hope you make memories with her her you never forget. I hope she`s your world, and what you have with her is nothing less than perfection. and I hope that one day, you lose her. I hope you mess up and as hard as you try to keep her there with you, she slips through the cracks of your broken heart. I hope it destroys you, because you realized you`ve lost the person you once called your everything. I hope you see every moment you spent together spin away down the drain like it was waiting to happen. I hope you stay up at night because she`s on your mind and when you fall asleep, she haunts your dreams. I hope her beautiful smile stays pressed in your mind like a scar that won’t fade away. I hope you realize that you`re a new person because of her, I hope your new self feels incomplete without her and you miss the old you. The one that was okay with being alone, because you’d rather be the heart breaker than the heartbroken.

the girl.

2010-06-25T13:13:00.001-07:00

She’s the girl that believes that what comes around goes around. The one that hopes for a better day. The one that won’t give up on you. She’s the girl that’s unlike the rest. The one that spent her days smiling, and her nights crying. She’s the girl that would love to be loved. The one that looks so damn strong, but feels so weak. She’s the girl that picks herself up every time she falls.

love isn't supposed to hurt.

2010-06-24T12:57:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you just have to realize that just because you love someone, doesn’t mean they love you back. And just because you would do everything for them, doesn’t mean they’ll stay. Just gotta wake up and move on. It’ll hurt like hell, but in the end.. not having what you deserve will be more painful. If you deserve better, let go. Love isn’t supposed to hurt, not one bit. I’m finally realizing that.

portugal's number 7

2010-06-24T12:53:00.000-07:00

this goal made Ronaldo 10x morreee hottter!

EPIC.

a partner.

2010-06-24T12:51:00.000-07:00

You need a partner who balances your life. For example. She likes to run fast, listen to music and smile. She needs someone who can run after her, play her favorite songs and make her smile.

life story.

2010-06-23T12:29:00.000-07:00

makes sense.

2010-06-23T12:23:00.000-07:00

“Once you step out of the past, it’s important you don’t keep looking over your shoulder to see if it’s following you… That’s because even the good things of your past can keep you from allowing God to do a new thing now.”

—	Stormie Omartian

2010 NBA champions.

2010-06-23T12:14:00.000-07:00

i've always blogged about the Lakers.

but i was too busy the last week that i never got the chance to write about their victory.

anyway..

i watched the final game with my friends at some sports bar in LA.

it was hella fun.

staples-like atmosphere. and when they won..

the whole city of Los Angeles explodeddd!

Congratulations LA Lakers for the Back2Back Championship.

Let's do it again!

3peat baby!

it's not easy

2010-06-23T12:07:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, when people are sad, nothing can really bring them back up right away. Not words, not good advice, or even the people around them trying to make them happy can't make them happy just like that. We should never tell someone to just be happy and forget about what's holding them down because we're not dealing with the pain in their heart. It takes time and patience for someone to get back up. It's not that easy.

one.

2010-06-22T12:42:00.000-07:00

broken

2010-06-12T20:40:00.000-07:00

What exactly is a broken heart? A broken heart is forcing yourself to hang up the phone after you have dialed the first three digits to his phone number. A broken heart is the cold, chattering feeling you receive when you hear his name. A broken heart is when you’re crying yourself to sleep every night and yet crying more and more each morning. A broken heart is glancing at the pictures of the two of you, and then quickly turning your attention to something else to avoid your tears. A broken heart is screaming and begging for a second chance inside, but not being able to say it out loud. A broken heart is the emptiness and heart wrenching feeling you encounter when you see him with other girls. A broken heart is knowing that no matter what you do or say to yourself, you cant fool your heart into believing that you will in fact be “okay.” A broken heart is listening to that one song that makes you break down, on repeat. A broken heart is when you go from smiling uncontrollably every time you saw him to quiet tears every time someone mentions his name. A broken heart is when you try to avoid him but end up going out of your way just to get a glimpse of him. A broken heart is when you know you’ve been hurt, but have no idea how to fix it. A broken heart is when you finally realize that he’s everything you need and at the same time realize he’s the one thing you can never have.

fairytale.

2010-06-12T20:38:00.001-07:00

When I was a little girl I used to read fairy tales. In fairy tales you meet Prince Charming and he’s everything you ever wanted. In fairy tales the bad guy is very easy to spot. The bad guy is always wearing a black cape so you always know who he is. Then you grow up and you realize that Prince Charming is not as easy to find as you thought. You realize the bad guy is not wearing a black cape and he’s not easy to spot; he’s really funny, and he makes you laugh, and he has perfect hair.

happy < sad

2010-06-11T16:18:00.000-07:00

“Do you miss him at the most happy and fulfilling times of your life? Just because you miss him when the world is quiet and you feel alone doesn’t mean you love him. You will miss anyone when you’re lonely. It’s when your life is going great and you still feel that ache in your heart because he isn’t there to see the genuine smile on your face and happiness in your life.”

*i miss him.. i remember 4 years ago.

when the whole fambam went to Disneyland and

during the much awaited fireworks display..

i cried soo much that i couldn't even breathe.

at that moment,

i realized how much i missed him

i want to share that magical feeling beside

the one i truly love..

and there i was.

in the Happiest Place on Earth..

all sad and lonely.

not knowing.

2010-06-11T16:16:00.000-07:00

there are many things that I would like to say to you...

...but i don't know how.

:)

2010-06-11T16:14:00.000-07:00

“I like to see people reunited. I like to see people run to each other. I like the kissing and the crying. I like the impatience. The ears that aren’t big enough, the eyes that can’t take in all of the change. I like the hugging, the bringing together, and the end of missing someone.”

thank you~

2010-06-11T16:08:00.000-07:00

wohoooo! 22,000 blog hits! thanks guyss. sorry i didn't get to post much stuff lately. imma try to give you more the next few days. really, thank you.

sad :(

2010-06-11T16:07:00.000-07:00

ex

2010-06-11T16:06:00.000-07:00

Of course we’ll meet new people and fall in love again. Of course we’re gonna hate each other and seek out to hurt each other but we’ll always have a history that won’t let us forget no matter how much we want to.

the one

2010-06-11T16:00:00.000-07:00

He keeps hurting you over and over again yet,

you keep going back. He's just that one boy you can't

seem to let go of. He's the one who stole your heart and

you're not ready to get it back yet.

bullsh*t

2010-04-08T09:00:00.000-07:00

So, now you love me? That’s cute. Adorable, in fact. Considering, you let me go. You pushed me away, and I’m no idiot; I took the hint and got over you. So you love me? Bullshit. You came to that conclusion too late.

first.

2010-04-06T17:23:00.000-07:00

“Your first love.You know who I’m talking about. I bet you read the words ‘first love’ and that one boy came to your mind. There’s nothing like that first boy you were so afraid to love. When you knew it was love despite what others said. That one boy that changed your expectations that one boy you will compare all of the boys in your future to because deep down inside you know that he was the one, the one that set the standard for love.”

♥break

2010-04-06T17:09:00.000-07:00

What is heartbreak?Is it lying on the bathroom floor trying your damnest to breathe while simutaneously wondering why it went wrong, how you’re gonna get up and pretend like everything is alright, and what the hell are you going to do about that hole in your chest?Yeah, I think that’s it.

i'll be seeing you.

2010-04-06T17:02:00.000-07:00

“I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore,
because I know that what we had was real.
And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives,
I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees,
learning from each other and growing in love.
The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts
and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me.
That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you.”

— The Notebook

miss.

2010-04-06T16:56:00.001-07:00

“don’t be flattered that he misses you. he should miss you.
you’re deeply missable. however, he’s still the same person
who just broke up with you. remember, the only reason he
can miss you is because he’s choosing, everyday, not to be
with you.”

— he’s just not that into you

uncharming prince.

2010-04-06T16:52:00.001-07:00

The reason I am still so attached to you is because I never felt that way about anyone. Cliché, right? Well, I’m serious. To this day, I would take you back. I would take back all the lack of communication and all the bullshit you pull. I would deal with your stubborn mind and closed heart. Tell me why, out of all the Prince Charming’s, why did I chose the most uncharming of them all?

the boy.

2010-04-06T16:49:00.001-07:00

We all have that boy; he’s the boy we try to pretend we aren’t looking for as we make our way to class. He’s the boy that we lie about and claim to not care about anymore. He’s the boy that gives you the cliche butterflies, complete with the weakness in the knees. He’s the boy we’re thinking about as we read this. I think every single girl has this boy, and every single girl will remember him forever- he’s not the one for us, but he’ll always be somewhere in our hearts.

were.

2010-04-01T11:13:00.000-07:00

we WERE so happy.

words.

2010-04-01T06:09:00.000-07:00

I try to talk to you, but I don’t know what to say. I am afraid you don’t want me to say anything, so I don’t. but inside of me there are words waiting to come out and tell you how I feel, like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart and how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay locked in my heart, locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside yours too,
but i'll never know.

from:tumblr.

the way i felt.

2010-04-01T05:31:00.001-07:00

I want you to remember me someday, I want you to hear our song at some random moment. And I want you to feel a stabbing pain, go right through the middle of your heart and for that fleeting moment in time, I want you to feel like I did.

from:tumblr.

love sick.

2010-04-01T05:26:00.001-07:00

When you're heartbroken...

You block out everyone. You feel so tired, because you haven’t slept in forever. You know he’ll be in your dreams but you don’t want to stay awake laying in your bed crying either. You’re starving, but you can’t eat because you’re starving for him and every memory just leaves you with a bigger hole in your heart. Even your clothes reminds you of him, what you wore when you hung out. You can still smell them all over him, even though his scent hasn’t been there for long. You wish his scent would be stuck on you, but you know you’d be pulling at your skin trying to get him off you. You’re online, he signs on, and you want to scream at him to go away, but you just watch the screen waiting for him to say anything, but then he signs off, and you tear yourself apart for not saying anything to him. You stop talking to your friends, and they get worried and try comforting you, but they just make you feel worse because they think they know, but they don’t have a damn clue.

harder.

2010-03-26T17:24:00.000-07:00

2010-03-25T04:38:00.000-07:00

Basha: I’m sorry. I’m sorry.

Popoy: No. I am sorry. I’m sorry for not saying sorry before noong nasaktan kita. Noon kasing nagkahiwalay tayo, ang inisip ko, sarili ko lang. Yung nararamdaman ko lang. Yung gusto ko lang. I’m sorry Bash, naging madamot ako. Hindi ko inintindi na kailangan mo rin palang hanapin yung Basha’ng nawala noong minahal mo ako.

Basha: Yung Basha’ng mahal ka pa rin.

Popoy: Hindi mo alam kung gaano ko kagustong sabihin sa’yo na, sana tayo na lang. Sana tayo na lang ulit.

Pero pag sa tuwing nararamdaman ko kung gaano kita ka mahal; hindi ko maiwasang maramdaman ulit ang lahat ng sakit. And I’m sorry.

Basha: Ano ang dapat kong gawin?

Popoy: Ako na ‘to eh, Bash. Ako naman ang may kailangan ng panahon ngayon. Para makalimutan ko na ang lahat ng sakit. Para maalala ko lahat ng maganda at mabuti sa atin. Para bumalik yung Popoy na nawala, noong nagkahiwalay tayo. I want my heart to stop breaking, Bash. Para pag naging tayo ulit, kaya na kitang mahalin ng buong-buo. Na wala ng anong takot kung masakatan man tayo uli.

2010-03-25T04:36:00.000-07:00

Popoy: Ano ba ang pinagkakaganyan mo? Dahil pinupuna ko yung mga designs mo?
Basha: Hindi masama yung loob ko. Okay nga lang ako.
Popoy: Ayan ka na naman…
Basha: Ano na naman ako!
Popoy: Ayan, ganyan. Sasabihin mo walang problema pero meron naman pala.
Basha: Wala naman talaga e.
Popoy: Bash! Pano ko maaayos ang problema kung di mo sasabihin sakin? Kung hindi ko alam?
Basha: Poy, hindi lahat ng problema kaya mong ayusin. And believe me hindi mo gustong malaman kung ano yung problema ko.
Popoy: E ano nga kasi ang problema?
Basha: Gusto mo ba talagang malaman? Ako! Ako ang problema! Kasi nasasaktan ako kahit hindi naman ako dapat nasasaktan. Sana kaya ko na lang tiisin ang sakit na nararamdaman ko… kasi ako yung humiling nito, diba? Ako yung may gusto. Sana kaya ko na lang sabihin sayo na… masaya ako para sayo. Para sa inyo. Sana kaya ko… Sana kaya ko. Pero hindi e. Ang sama-sama kong tao. Kasi ang totoo umaasa pa rin akong sabihin mong… sana ako pa rin… ako na lang… ako na lang ulit.
Popoy: Mahal ko si Trisha.
Basha: Alam ko. Alam ko…
Popoy: She loved me at my worst. You had me at my best. At binalewala mo lang lahat ng yon.
Basha: Popoy, yan ba talaga ang tingin mo? I just made a choice.
Popoy: And you chose to break my heart.

2010-03-25T04:35:00.002-07:00

Mommy Rose: Ikukwento mo ba? O huhulaan ko na lang?
Basha: Alam ko naman na pinagpalit na nya talaga ko e… pero ngayon lang talaga naging totoo. Sobrang sakit.

2010-03-25T04:29:00.000-07:00

Popoy: Alam nating madaling sumuko, pero hindi ka ganon.
Basha: Kailangan ko to. Kailangan mo rin.
Popoy: Pero ikaw ang kailangan ko.

one more chance.

2010-03-25T04:27:00.000-07:00

Currently watching:

One More Chance (Star Cinema, 2007)

for the 957593014895th time. it never gets old.

Popoy-Basha FTW!

release.

2010-03-25T04:10:00.000-07:00

“ Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. Mary Manin Morrissey

ily,gb.

2010-03-24T17:52:00.000-07:00

3 days after.

2010-03-24T00:23:00.000-07:00

Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao kapag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo.”

- Bob Ong

march 21st.

2010-03-21T11:31:00.000-07:00

"One of the most devastating things in life is when someone gives up on you.."

why?

i was wrong.

2010-03-19T09:35:00.001-07:00

“ I know what I did was wrong. I seem to do all the wrong things. I don’t mean to be a bad person, but I just can’t help it. So that’s why I gotta go.

The Secret Lives of Bees