sum.

i know how you feel.

the boy.

“The way you make me feel is unlike anything I’ve ever experienced before. You make me feel like I’m dying and flying and living and that my heart just stopped beating but yet is pumping 90 mph all in one moment. You make me feel invincible but vulnerable. weak, but like nothing could ever bring me down. You make me feel like I’m free and yet trapped by your every move. You leave me breathless and yet are the only thing that keeps me still breathing. You control my every thought, movement, heart beat. You’ve got me, all of me. That’s all I can give.”

see that girl?

See that girl? Yeah, she's the one who stuck up for you, the one who stayed up til' midnight just to talk to you. She's the one whose heart flutters when she gets a call or text from you, the one who says good morning every time she gets the opportunity, and the one who prays she'll get a chance to say goodnight. Boy, she's the one who fought for you, the one that missed you and loved you. But by the time you realize that she's the girl you want, she'll already be with the guy who figured it out.

the best.

I am incredibly awkward and negative. I get attached easily, and I hold on for too long. I don’t like opening up to people. Most 5 year old children can express their feelings better than me. I hide behind my fake smiles. I’m terrified of being hurt. I tend to act older than I am. I’m probably one of the most difficult people you will ever meet. But I can be sweet. I’m a great listener. I’ll guard your secrets with my life. I will never judge you based on your mistakes, and I’ll love you as much as I can. I can be, if you let me, one of the best things in your life.

it will all be true.

Have you ever wondered about the things we tell ourselves before we fall asleep? We whisper the words in the dark, telling ourselves that we're happy, or that he's happy, that people will change their minds. We persuade ourselves that we can live without the people who have left. Each night before we fall asleep we lie to ourselves in a desperate hope that come morning, it will all be true.

when?

what's left.

And when a guy breaks up with a girl and she begins to cry, it's not because she's crying for the guy, not because she's upset. She's crying because she's wondering what she done wrong, as if she wasn't good enough, she's crying because she's going to miss the memories of being with him. She's crying with what's left of her heart.

remember me?

Remember me? I used to be your favourite hello, your hardest goodbye, I used to be the person you wanted to talk most and will miss if you didn't get to talk to me. I used to be someone you wanted to be with everyday and night, I used to be the first thought in your mind in the morning and the last thought before you go to sleep, I used to be the girl who you wished to see me smile when I'm down and who wish I didn't cry, I used to be the most beautiful girl to you. Yeah, I used to be that person. Do you still remember me?

baby baby.